What I Do

Thank you for your messages of support 

They have really helped me

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So my new job

Which I must return to later today

I provide activities for mainly dementia patients 

Though not exclusively 

At a lovely residential home

Then later in the shift I provide care and medication

For the residents living in converted barn units

Actually sometimes I stay in the home and help also

It all depends

It is a home I have come to know well

As I have several learners there

And it is where my youngest now works 

It feels right and proper 

To be back doing some ‘hands on’ work

It is also regular work

Unlike the assessing

Where if you don’t see your learner

You don’t get paid

The problem I faced before going away was

Trying to fit a months worth of visits

Into half a month

Added to beginning my new job

Which I do twice a week

Plus every alternate Saturday 

It made for a truly exhausting period

As I move forward

I will avoid doing both jobs on the same day

Except where there is a learner at my workplace 

And so this week I am not visiting any learners

But I am doing my other job plus a couple of training sessions 

And I must do our VAT

How does that come around so quickly?

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So I’m well aware that my emotional tank is now empty

I need to factor in some Henry cuddles

Also some chilled out time by the fire

How wrong that reads!

I would love to sand the stable door and get it painted

Before even considering draping the Cottage in its festive finery

Oh and I will also be contacting my son on a daily basis

He is not going to slip down the plug hole any further on my watch

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Of course I have many more wants 

Such as making a Christmas cake

But we’re not actually going to suffer if I don’t get to it

Though that lovely smell would lift my spirits I feel

I could sit here in bed and wallow in self pity

But our days are short

And time is a precious gift I don’t want to waste

I must be strong for my family

And having suffered from the dark beast myself

I feel I have come out stronger and certainly more understanding 

Though I do also realise that happiness is a very fragile commodity 

Physical tiredness is much healthier than mental fatigue 

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My sincere apologies if I have not left comments on your lovely blogs of late

But I hope you understand that I am conserving energy for other things

I am though just about caught up with reading your words 

And just following along gives my great pleasure 

Thank you

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Blessings J. x

Dealing With Depression

This holiday has been far from that in reality 

Our son has been suffering with depression for the last twelve months

And had not shared this with us

I hope I have put in place some things that will help him

His former girlfriend is still standing right by him

Hurting and confused 

They are best friends 

And as he recovers I hope they will plan their future together 

We have no more secrets

He has done what everybody does when depressed

Pushed all those who love and care for him away

To wallow in his dark cave

Parenting never stops

Not just for tiny infants reliant on their Mothers’ milk

My boy is 26, has a good job and his own home

Depression doesn’t care who you are or what you have

I am now exhausted 

Returning to work tomorrow will take some doing

But I shall put my best foot forwards 

Being depressed sometimes is normal

If treated appropriately we can become stronger and more understanding 

I hope I have treated this situation appropriately and with understanding 

Blessings J. x

Such is Life

Such is life

The last few weeks have not been easy

Taking on an extra job

Just as the clocks went back

Has meant getting home well after dark

And some bad planning resulted in some very long days

But hopefully that will resolve itself

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It's true you never stop worrying about your children

And much of my energies have been spent

Worrying for my son

He's split from his long term girlfriend

But apparently it's complicated

As in they split back in May

However continued to visit us as a couple

I'll give him complicated!

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This next week we leave the youngsters in charge

And take some time out

Partly with our son

And partly in Yorkshire

We both really need a holiday

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So Sunday afternoon at the Cottage

The light is fading fast

Washing is airing over the Aga

A sleeping dog is at my feet

Once more I am alone

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It is now Tuesday
We have arrived at our sons’ house
And await his return from work
I hope my batteries will be well and truly recharged 
Before my work beckons once more
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May you all be happy and well
Soon I hope to catch up with you all
But for now
Family is more important 
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Blessings J. x